Playah: 6′5″ tall, dark, and handsome man whom i worked with 15 years ago—or at least, i knew him through my work. recently re-aquainted with each other (july08) UPDATE: died tragically and unexpectedly on September 21, 2008. he had a massive heart attack. i am still sad about him…

TheCounselor: met online and so far, one date. seems open, real and down to earth. easy easy to talk to. gentleman. gets the whole “i just want to be friends at first thing.” UPDATE: realized i wasn’t ready for anything after what mathematician did to me. just lost touch. nice man, but not right for me.

D: very close friend whom i work with also

Real Man: one time date whom i met initially through real life mutual friend UPDATE: DONE with him

Cuz: refers to one or more of my cousins

Rochester Man: soon-to-be-divorced, not ready yet, musician man from rochester, NY. we are no longer speaking (update: we are speaking again and damn him if he isn’t my favorite, despite being emotionally unavailable…sigh) Back to not speaking. Heavy heavy sigh. Why?? UPDATE: DONE with him. UPDATE: returned briefly, but has disappeard again into the ether. divorce final in oct. so that’s that. this one is so disappointing

NJMan: met only online through one of my old blogs. freaks out when possibility of meeting comes close. always returns. can’t forget me. nor i him. fucker. UPDATE: currently on hiatus since june08 UPDATE: maybe he’s died too. who knows. no sign of him since june (it is now nov).

Online Crush: my big unrequited “love.” i’m mostly over him. california professor. eccentric. obsessed with his work. confusing, confounding, passionate, brilliant, rebel, all around well-heeled bad boy. need i say any more? UPDATE: he’s back to ignoring the hell out of me. got me reeled back in only to cast me out again. my own fault. i break all the rules for him. doesn’t he know no one will ever love him as much as me? doesn’t he care? no… UPDATE: he “accidently” sent me an email intended for another woman, about seeing her. i sent multiple scathing emails, and he responded very coldly and nastily, as if he didn’t do anything wrong. haven’t read his blog since, or written. nothing. finally feel it’s over. i’m happier with myself when i’m not letting someone ignore me and make excuses about why they can’t see me. it was all a lie. he just wanted someone else. that was the truth.

Forrest: awesome friend, writer. purely platonic, though he makes comments to the opposite occasionally.

David: ex-beau and now best friend.

Hyper Man: another co-worker. hyper, weird, funny. likes me. work “boyfriend” UPDATE: he was gone, now he’s back. i’ve taken to being cold to him and he’s acting like a hurt puppy. whatever. that’s what you get for taking advantage of me and my generosity.

Rocket Scientist: travels here for work (?) from NJ. had dinner together once. annoyed me last time he was here and i was busy and would not see him. has indicated wants to see me again. whatever. UPDATE: DONE with him.

Mathematician: my neighbor directly across the street. has apparently had a crush on me since the day i moved in. currently in the process of getting divorced. math teacher. singer. actor. tall and lanky black man. makes me laugh all the time. and has made me cry. UPDATE: after wife served divorce papers, now they are “back together” though he denies it. liar. cheater. i hate him and go out of my way to avoid him at every instance. so far, this has been successful. UPDATE: HATE HIM AND DONE WITH HIM. Is he back together with her? Who knows. Who cares. SECOND UPDATE: he’s now getting divorced. but, i’m STILL very much done with him. THIRD UPDATE: she moved back in. they live across the street from me and i have to run the risk of running into them every time i step outside my door. i dodged a MAJOR BULLET with this one. thank god i got away from him.

Scotsman: he’s a new one. a new singer in my chorus. and he’s scottish we shall see…

The King Antonio: lives in LA. scorpio. elusive. enigmatic. master of MY universe (on occasion

The best man for me: has yet to make himself known to me. i know he’s coming. i accept only the best possible candidates, from this moment forward.

The old man: last but not least…I love this man. That’s all I have to say…