since the last week of august, i have now lost 27 pounds. i have much to say about this change in my life, but have more to do today, so i’ll write more about it later.

suffice it to say, i feel more like myself, in every way, than i have in so long i can’t remember how long.

i came close to deleting online crush from my FB but i couldn’t do it. i know why, because still there is some stupid fucked up part of me that hopes that maybe his IGNORING THE FUCK OUT OF ME isn’t really who he is and someday he’ll realize who I AM and want to be with me.

i know. fucked up. vfuckedup. but i just wasn’t ready to do it.

but i did delete him from my twitter list because i can’t stand to see those women he flirts with there.

fucker.

at least i stopped fantasizing about seeing each other again, and all that would entail.

at least there’s that.

bday dinner later.

peace out.