i know it’s been days since i’ve been writing regularly here. i guess i’ve been busy and thinking and just not in the mood to elaborate on my goings on.

i did want to mention that i happened to be reading the blog of the girl (poor thing, i feel sorry for her) who the “old man” (remember him? fucker) came to see.

well. sounds like she’s been fucked over. or something like that.

i wonder if it’s something he did. it would not surprise me in the least. i absolutely felt that he would fuck her over too, when i realized what he was doing to me.

but the thing is, i am much older, much more experience in life and with men, and i always knew, at some level, that he was not for real. and so i did not take it all that seriously, and repeatedly told him to stop going on and on about things that may never occur. even when he sent me the necklace for xmas, well, i still didn’t really believe in him.

but her. i worried about him hurting her. i didn’t think she’d realize.

he used her too i bet.

at least with me, it wasn’t so bad. i wasn’t as stupid as i have been in the past.

i guess it gives me a little comfort, to know it was not me. but i feel sorry for her. i wanted to write a supportive comment on her blog, but i refrained. i wanted to tell her, it’s not you…