at hyperman’s break up was, well, not so selfish.

today, i made myself visible on FB, which i never do, and he happened to be online also.

i FORCED MYSELF not to intiate a chat.

within a few minutes of me showing myself, he popped up and said HEY!

***secretly very very pleased***

he almost immediately disclosed that he had broken up with his fiancee, and told me why. well. we never had all that personal conversations while we worked together, but he was always very very flirtatious and always looking for me and frankly, when he told me HAD a gf, i was sort of surprised. and then when he said he was engaged, i was well, SHOCKED.

but i accepted it and that was that and onward.

my friend B at work really noticed his behavior with me, before i ever admitted to having a crush on him. she’s so funny. one day, she totally asked him if he was married, very loudly, so i could hear the answer. he said no, he was divorced. we both thought it odd that he wouldn’t have said he had a gf then.

it took him two more months to throw that into our daily laugh-filled conversations.

well okay then, i remember thinking.

he’d look for me everyday and B noticed it, as did i. then summer came, and i asked around to see if he was coming back (he didn’t have a perm job yet) and he wasn’t on the returning list.

but as fate had it, he did return. and shortly thereafter i learned i was leaving and that he was getting engaged. i also sent him an message on FB, but didn’t ask to be added, and he didn’t respond. i sent him a message re: a job and he didn’t answer, so when he did return, i was pretty cool to him. i was hurt. he knew something was up, and was trying to make it up to me, but i remained mostly reserved. we eventually went back to our laughing ways before i left. in fact, our last lesson together, he just chuckled as i taught, saying that i always made him laugh.

what you mean, hyperman, is i make you happy.

my last day, he searched all over the bldg to find me to make sure he got to say goodbye to me. when we finally did see one another, he hugged me close to him and wouldn’t let me go.

i never really knew if he was like this with just everyone, but in the end, i do know that we had something between us, even if just friendship, that he didn’t necessarily share with anyone else.

he’s hyper and weird and funny and impulsive.

sound a little like anyone you know?

he said he missed me today, and i said i missed him too. we commiserated. apparently he’s been paying close attention to my updates on FB, because he referred to a number of them when we were chatting.

i was surprised. i hadn’t realized he was paying attention.

but it was nice. i do miss him. he was one of my people, at work. and i always wanted to be friends, at the very least, and maybe something more.

i told him today he was my friend, and he said i was a good friend.

makes me feel better about online crush and rochester man. and those other ones who blew me off recently.

this man knows me in real life. and he appreciates me.

and then there’s the older tech guy at work…which i shall save for another post altogether. right now, i have to get ready for bed.