what happened to the poet at work? the one who came up to me two weeks ago and handed me his poems and asked me to give him feedback about them.

i haven’t seen him since then. i used to see him almost everyday before that. what’s up with that? probably has nothing to do with me, right…

and then i mentioned that i was going to try and do that online thing again, despite my past dismal results. so i get these men looking at my profile all the time, the same ones in fact, and some even add me to their fav list. but no one. no one, actually writes to me.

just more online shopping and ogling of women i guess.

what is wrong with me anyway? why do i drive men away in droves?

i don’t even have to communicate with them and they disappear. or if they do communicate, initiating things with me in fact, they STILL disappear.

dammit. all i wanted, for so fucking long, was to get closer to online crush.

obviously i was a fool.

is this now my karma? to be shunned by men worldwide?

sigh…off to bed. but not before trying on my new shoes one more time…