Archive for December 3, 2008
after having a dream…
…last night about me driving off an icy curvy road into a shallow lake, where i was sure i was going to drown because i couldn’t get my seatbelt off or open my electronic locks (then i woke up), i feel much better.
i got the call, and they WILL make the job PROB–ARY. i have to meet with the princps tomorrow AM (ugh, even earlier than i have to be in to work normally) and then the new director said he’d be calling me with the ‘official’ offer.
as soon as he said they would give me what i want, i felt instant relief and excitement.
but i still can’t believe it. wow. yet another change.
i wonder why…
…i’ve started to think about online crush again. well. it was bound to happen. cuz and i discussed it today, and she said DON’T READ HIS BLOG AND DON’T WRITE TO HIM!
well. i wasn’t planning on doing either.
he’d have to come here to make it up to me. and i’m not sure even then it would be possible.
i mean, really. it’s not happening. though i suppose i entertain the irrational fantasy that someday he’ll show up or call and say “please forgive me. i miss you. i want to see you.”
in that case, yeah, i’d probably forgive him. well, i mean, only IN PERSON would i forgive him.
part of me won’t look at his blog because i don’t want to see how close he’s coming to speak, because i will alternately feel like shit that he won’t make arrangements to see me, and on the other hand, i know it would be hard as hell, if he was really close at some point, for me not to go and see him. and seeing him, on his terms only, will only lead to more pain on my part. so i don’t look.
i wonder why we love the people we do. sometimes it really blows.
anyway…
okay so here’s the deal…
…i got the call from the director and was offered the job. HOWEVER.
we agreed before i would accept it ONLY if it was prob–ary and not temp. they are offering it to be temp until 2 satisfactory evals. i said no, i would not leave a prob position for a temp one, no matter how good the $.
he sort of tried to argue the case it was just a formality, etc. and i said, you must remember that i have a history already with the district and it was supposed to go thru last time too, and then, lo and behold, the district laid us off. a lot of us.
so. i said i have to protect myself. yes, they could still do it, but accepting a temp position i think would just be idiotic at this point.
i told him that they should be able to account for my abilities based on the evals i got while there before. that should still be in my file. etc.
he said he’d work on it.
uhm. may i remind them that I DID NOT APPLY FOR THIS JOB, they sought me out.
oh and the two princps want to meet me too. are they kidding? okay. i’ll play their little game. all this bullshit to go through for a temp position? I DON’T THINK SO.
also, i’d be giving up a hell of a lot of perks, granted for a huge monetary gain, but money isn’t always everything. and i know that.
so i said i’d meet with the princips, etc. but i would only accept it if prob, no room for negotiation on that.
of course i knew the idiots would do something like this. because you know, they just have a plethora of highly qualified people, with awesome experience, beating down the doors to work there.
not.
