i’m crying laughing now. seriously. this man makes me have to pee my pants. watch the Barack Millions clip.

watch the halloween clips. lmao.

more here. lmao some more.

…my birthday. it’s on tuesday, election day, but i frequently have long drawn out celebrations with various people. that’s nice of course. last year, my whole family had a real party for me. i hadn’t had one of those in a long time. so it was pleasant.

this year, starting today, david and i are going to our fav restaurant for dinner tonight. it’s become our bday tradition (his bday is two weeks earlier). if you don’t know who he is, well, he’s my former bfriend who broke up with me in 2001. it was a decent break up, so he could date others (which, incidentally, he never really did). we remain close. we were together for 8 years before that. anyway. we’ll be out tonight.

then tomorrow i am singing the faure requiem in church, and then my mom is taking me to brunch here. also a great restaurant, and on the water. the weather is supposed to be nice, so that should be enjoyable.

monday is rehearsal. tuesday (actual bday) is election day. i have to work, then come home to vote, then possible drive back out to the burbs for an election party at one of my close friends.

dad and stepmom asked to take me out that night, but i think i’ll ask to go on wed instead. so that’s all.

it should be a nice weekend. if i can ever get my act together and stop procrastinating.

yes. i am the definition of it. one thing that mathematician pointed out to me, over and over, was the i was ADD. attention deficit disorder, if you don’t know what that means. i do have some traits of that, which i think have gotten worse as i’ve gotten older. but i DO NOT have it. i have trouble focusing on one thing for very long. at least, when there is a lot to distract me. when i have absolute silence and nothing going on around me, i can concentrate and complete things one at a time. but most of the time, even when i DO have that kind of focus, i still go from one thing to another and back again. jack of all trades, master of none. that’s always been me. maybe that’s why i am liking collages more and more. i can mash it all together. lol.

anyway. he had a point. i never seem to get anything completely finished. unless i have a deadline. then i can hunker down and get it done. i was very good in grad school, and when i have a schedule. if i don’t have that, i’ll waste endless amounts of time.

anyway. this isn’t what i was planning on writing about (see??? perfect example)

it’s also why i sometimes interrupt and go on to some tangential topic in conversation. it’s a bad habit, and i do try to remember i have a tendency to do that and to stop myself. but i don’t always succeed. i get excited and want to say things before i forget them.

ugh. i sound a little crazy.

well.

so i decided to try the novel writing in one month this november. but the site is continually down or slow. they don’t have enough bandwidth for the traffic, that’s clear. so it’s annoying me. but i am thinking of the novel in my head. i do that. a story or essay hangs around in my head, sometimes for months, before i actually start it. i’ve heard a few other authors say that this is how they work as well, so that makes me feel better.

anyway. it’s not anything i’m working on now. whole new idea.

and another way to procrastinate. of course.