Archive for September 19, 2008

i feel traumatized

i can’t stop getting hysterical when i tell someone about what happened last night.

apparently they had the CORRECT address, they just didn’t go to the CORRECT house. even though the number is clear as day on the front door.

i’m really angry right now about it. they abused their rights and trampled on mine. i talked to my landlord, who knows the chief of police, and he said i should file a complaint. which i will do.

to top it all off, even though my car DID pass inspection this morning, on my way to work, it broke down. had to have it towed back to the garage.

then my step-mom lent me her car (very very nice of her) and when i pulled up to the house, the asshole across the street pulled up too and instead of going right in, he loitered at his car, until i walked to the front of the house, and he stood there at his car, staring at me.

i just glared directly at him without speaking. he looked all sorry ass but i walked away. fuck him.

he’s a useless piece of shit.

if it wasn’t clear before…

it’s now crystal clear i live in the GHETTO.

i just got woken up an hour ago by frantic ringing of my doorbell and pounding of my door. then i heard pounding on the door downstairs and the guy downstairs running around and answering the door.

because i was afraid for my neighbor downstairs, i looked out the window, thinking it might be the idiot across the street or god forbid, his wife. that was my first thought.

i couldn’t see because it was dark, but then someone flashed a flashlight up at me and said “there’s a white woman looking out the window”

jesus christ. i ran from the window, because i didn’t know who it was.

then they were pounding on my upstairs door. i called out asking who it was, still having no clue what was going on.

POLICE

shit. they asked for some guy named julio. i opened the door to see two plainclothes policeman standing there looking menacing. they had badges hanging around their necks.

i let them in as i saw 5 more of them come up my stairs. no uniforms on any of them, but some of them had vests on that said POLICE on the back.

okay.

i was sleeping and completely out of it, and in total shock. 7 policeman (and woman) in my apartment. accusing me of harboring some hispanic guy named julio that they claimed someone had told them was living with me.

uhm.

hello?

i have no one living with me. i don’t know anyone hispanic. i certainly don’t know julio. i told them i’ve NEVER lived with anyone and that i don’t even have a BOYFRIEND.

at that comment, the one police guy says “oh, i’m sorry to hear that.”

yeah, in the middle of you storming my apartment, it’s never too scary to flirt with the person you’re invading.

when i said that, the tall black guy snooping my kitchen turned around too and eyed me up and down.

i told them to look around anywhere they wanted.

it was surreal. freakish. i couldn’t believe it was happening. the older guy kept asking me over and over, me in my braless t-shirt, jeans half-unbuttoned, and make-up smeared under my eyes, if i knew JULIO.

when i insisted and said they must have gotten the address wrong, they said that whoever gave the TIP, was VERY SPECIFIC.

i said it didn’t matter, because whoever it was, was stupid or making it up.

never too scared to be a smartass with the police.

they asked me if i’d made anyone mad lately.

yeah. that’s me. minding my own business but somehow someone’s pissed at me.

i immediately thought of the fuckhead across the street.

the other day i was just walking in the front door and i thought i heard a woman’s voice call out my name. i never turned around, just walked in the door, but i wondered if asshole had finally told his SOON TO BE EX WIFE that i lived here.

i didn’t think of it again until tonight. i immediately thought of the two of them. i don’t think HE would ever do anything to me, because we haven’t spoken or fought and he’s just a coward anyway.

but her. who knows.

if i ever find out she lied to the police to get them to invade my house, well…

i just better not find that out.

i finally got rid of them when i told them there was a creepy guy i’d seen next door all the time, but they shouldn’t let on that it was me who told them that. they seemed suspicious (yeah, because i look so suspicious, don’t i?) but that ended up getting rid of them. i heard them go next door. but they didn’t find who they were looking for, though i heard some conversation outside saying something about taking someone away in cuffs.

i watched the misfit squad from my window then, and they saw me, standing there watching them blabbing at their cars.one of the policeman had an axe.

it was obvious that they would have broken down my door if we hadn’t let them in.

seriously. what the FUCK???

we’ve had a couple shootings not far from here this week, and a drug bust also not that far. david said they said on the news that they’ve been canvassing this area.

holy shit. i have to get out of here.

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