Archive for September 6, 2008
barbara boxer on mccain
of course we know who i’m voting for. i’ve even considered actual volunteering for obama’s campaign (there is one issue he supports that i don’t, but i will leave that for another post). as in time spent in the local campaign headquarters.
chart on the issues
no references for this information, so read at your own risk. but it seems to be fairly on track from what i’ve read and seen so far.
deadline missed
not that i want to move, yet again, even if it is only temporary (the man of my dreams could possibly make me move, but anyway…), but yesterday i saw a post on one of my professional listservs about a fulbright opportunity in my field specifically, in egypt.
why someone posted it after the deadline had passed (aug 1) i don’t know. that annoyed me. would i rather not have known about it?
i actually ALMOST deleted the email without opening it (the subject line was explicit).
but i decided to open it.
hmmmm. i was pretty psyched actually, because it was at the amazing libr there in alexandria. wow. i can’t imagine getting that opportunity.
when i applied as an artist, right out of grad school, i wanted to work with the cairo opera house (my heavy background in music lead me to that, as it was also the focus of my project).
but to get to go to the first library ever, situated right on the mediterranean…well. it’s a spectacular building.
i was a bit sad, but also realizing that i need a bit more prof experience before applying again. because this time i’ll apply in my field, not as an artist. i have a cool idea for a project, just need to wait until i get tenure so i have a job to come back to.
this means i can apply next fall, to go the following one.
i haven’t given up on my idea.
i also found another opportunity for specialists, which i may also apply for at some point–this spring? we’ll see. you get put on a list, if accepted, and then people from programs in many countries can request you for shorter duration projects–2 to 6 weeks. that would be perfect for my summers.
anyway. i know part of my issue with online crush is that i assume he doesn’t want me because i am not talented or accomplished enough (he values expertise very highly, over love and commitment, i’d say).
but what that really means is IT IS MY ISSUE.
i have always felt i haven’t lived up to my full potential. for many reasons i won’t get into here.
i find the men that i get most attached to now, are men who have qualities that i possess, but haven’t fully developed in myself.
he definitely fills that description.
i don’t need to be with him or have his approval or love or attention.
what i really need, is to develop the qualities i admire in him, IN MYSELF.
onward.
more questions
why, if you’re on your way to menopause (it’s not a pause btw, it’s permanent), does your period get heavier and heavier? i mean, shouldn’t it get lighter and lighter until it disappears altogether? just saying.
why do people bother using a turn signal a) after they are already turning (newsflash: it’s to WARN the other drivers what you’re ABOUT to do, not an added maneuver that you must include in order to actually facilitate turning) ? b) after they’ve already braked unexpectedly (again, if they’d put on a turn signal to SIGNAL that they would be turning, one could assume they’d need to slow and brake in order to facilitate the turning) ? again. just wondering.
and why do i find myself scared to death over opening OC’s email from the other day? it makes me sick to my stomach to think of what he might have written…sometimes i am so sure he hates me, and then i end up reading whatever it is that i am scared about, and it’s nothing. harmless. barely even a couple words. my guess? it’s probably about 2 to 3 words. saying one of the following:
i’m busy b
you didn’t do anything wrong
you always overreact
why you do this?
this is why i won’t see you
i’m in love. with someone else
what is wrong with you?
okay. so some of those answers are more than 3 words. well, he might have decided to be more verbose.
probably not.
colbert report
oh and this interview, about 12 or 13 minutes in, of a georgia congressman is PRECIOUS.
he supported posting the ten commandments in judicial buildings, but listen to what he says about it…lmao again.
or should i be crying that these types of people are “leading” our country?
david paterson, governor of ny, is pretty funny too 
