Archive for June 9, 2008
i’m over
…the worst of it. i was MOST crabby this AM, but as the day moved on, it subsided, for the most part. i don’t want to waste any more feelings or energy on the two latest fuckers.
onward.
eating
i’m very depressed. i feel like a failure and totally rejected. again. and again. and again. over and over this keeps happening.
so i’m doing what i used to do, before i lost the 40 pounds. eating. cheese sticks and nacho chips and salsa con queso and oreos. and i don’t care. i’ve been crying off and on all night.
i’m angry and hurt and disgusted.
when will this ever stop? when?
tomorrow i’ll stop eating.
