okay. so we had our first “misunderstanding” this AM. it was about sat night. i asked him what we were doing that night and he hesitated and said he was busy with his friends. i had a knee jerk reaction due to Z, that fucker from TO, and then i got upset. i said it was fine, but he knew i was upset. we were both at work. he called me back 15 minutes later to say he didn’t want to start his day upset with me or me with him and if it was important to me, he’d make sure we did something together on sat.

wow. i wasn’t trying to control him, i told him it was the seeming evasiveness that upset me, and especially after our wonderful conversation the night before. he understood. he asked if we could make up later i said yes, of course.

we just talked for almost two hours on the phone. he told me that he wants so much to respect my position about sex and all that, he knows where i am coming from. he said he’s afraid too and he likes “courting” me.

he’s coming over in a minute. we’re going for a walk and to get some ice cream

i really really like him. i can’t believe this is happening. it’s completely unexpected, but so so very nice. i’m feeling connected to him on all the levels that matter. he said he knows if we connect on the last one (which i feel we will, based on preliminary research *wink*) then, and i quote: “it’s all over.”

i asked what that meant. he just keeps saying “i’m done. i’m done.”

meaning? he’s whipped. or will be.

i’m trying to contain my excitement. and my desires. i can do it. for once, i can do it. he’s being great about it too. it means a lot to me.