i just got home from buying a new scale. i’ve been weighing myself on david’s scale, and haven’t done so in like, a month maybe. it’s how i know i lost 40 pounds. well. i THOUGHT i did. but it seems i may have gained some of it back. not much, but enough to upset me. but how come my clothes just keep getting smaller? i take a size almost 3 sizes smaller now. but it’s not like i’ve been building muscle or something (which weighs more than fat). in fact, i really NEED to do that.

**pouting**

okay. my own fault. how about stop eating? that would do it. or, more likely, stop eating junk at night. i think that’s been the culprit.

sigh.