going on this weekend. just cleaning, shopping, hanging around. week from hell coming up. must get enough rest and won’t be posting all that much either, i think. unless something fun and exciting happens.

rocket scientist and i spoke briefly yesterday before both of us went out to our respective evening plans, but today, he hasn’t called

can you believe i’m complaining about it? i don’t dare tell him i’m wishing he’d call.

he emailed me, and IMed me offline, to tell me he was thinking of me and wanted to say hi. so i texted (how do you spell that anyway??) him because i missed that IM by like, 3 minutes.

but he hasn’t called or texted back.

one of my friends said today, over dinner, “is he married you think?”

ugh. i hope not. he said not. i didn’t get that vibe at all, but this weekend…well. could he be?

or just involved elsewhere maybe. which i don’t want to know or care about.

he has two girls, and they don’t live with him, but i’m thinking he must see them on the weekend, right? i know last weekend he didn’t but maybe this weekend he did.

or he’s just a liar like the rest of them.

or.

this sucks for me.

the stress of learning to trust someone is hard on me.

i’ve been lied to soooo many times in soooo many different situations, that not hearing from someone makes me crazy. as we know.

i’m working on it. it’s my issue. i realize that.