Archive for April 5, 2008

tenure

while of course, it’s something i want and have been told, basically, i am going to get, it’s something that i haven’t gotten yet and also, it’s something that the one who is crazy and acting out all the time, abusively, to me and others, has. so despite that i am both a better teacher and manager than her, i am the one, in the end, it would be easier to get rid of, to make the problem of her go away. at least temporarily. it will erupt again if they don’t get rid of her and instead keep moving everyone else around her away. so in this respect, tenure sucks. it won’t change who i am when i get it (because i WILL get it), because i love what i do. and people say all the time, unprompted, that they can see how passionate i am about my job. that won’t change. unlike some people i know.

i really hate that bitch sometimes for making us all walk on eggshells. i’ve decided that i’m in the right place. i’m not going anywhere, she is.

more men than i know what to do with

ah. those were the days. once, when i was in college, i was dating 5 men at the same time. two of them were on the same basketball team (talk about having to juggle a ball) and two of them had the same first name. so, when someone would call, i could never answer the phone. why? i just made my friends do it (i was living in a house with 3 other women at the time). i had to mentally prepare for whoever it might be, so answering blindly, i couldn’t do that.

this was long before cell phones and caller ID, darlings.

this period of time didn’t last very long. it was very stressful. i was confused most of the time. it was flattering, don’t get me wrong, but it was still stressful. now mind you, i was not sleeping with all of them (though i was very promiscuous in college, to be honest) but still.

and also, luckily, i got to have my fun back then, before AIDS emerged into the heterosexual community.  yes, i’ve been tested for all those nasty things, and i am fine–as for the rest of my sexual life, i have no idea what a real penis feels like inside of me anymore, without that nasty rubber on it, because i can’t take the pill, so…but that could be another post–and too much information.

i digress.

i’ve gotten two more emails in my personals profile mailbox since my date the other night.

lol. funny. i stop subscribing because no one was writing to me, and now, that i’ve got two other men who i am kind of dating, i hear from two more. when it rains it pours.

both of the new men can spell. a bonus. and both “appear” to be professionals. i’ll write back. i should keep my options open.

and how funny i should say that, because years ago when i did this online dating thing, how i HATED it when men would make that comment to me.

it’s my turn to be casual and take my time.

PS—i HATE that the categories are now BELOW the posting field. very very annoying. too much scrolling to do now. i’m complaining to wordpress. this new version isn’t user-friendly.

i don’t like the new interface

yuck yuck yuck. i don’t like it when they change things and don’t tell us it’s coming. i’m talking about the new interface in wordpress. i feel like i don’t know where anything is. the text is all too small. i DON’T LIKE IT!