Archive for April 3, 2008
meeting him
he called and i agreed to meet him for a drink only. i’m thinking it’s probably a big waste of time. but since we’d talked about it repeatedly, i will go.
whatever.
can’t good kisser like me instead?
pretty please, universe?
please?
i’ll try to report later. i don’t expect to be out too late.
games people play
so. after wanting to call me everyday, sometimes more than once a day, rocket scientist has not called me or IMed me or emailed me or texted me the day before our planned meeting.
i did speak with him briefly last night and then again online briefly before bed. i said i had to get my clothes out of the dryer and then go to bed (it was almost 10:30PM) and so could we talk again tomorrow? i asked if he could call.
he answered: well, if you want me to.
well. yes, that’s why i ASKED you if you could call. i didn’t like his response, because i felt it was again, pissy that i haven’t wanted to talk every single night before meeting.
and to be honest, last night when i did speak to him, and asked him what was new or what had been going on, just to try and make conversation, he seemed to have nothing to say.
so either he’s really boring or he’s being passive-aggressive because i asked for some boundaries, not unreasonably, in my opinion.
first of all, YOU HAVEN’T EVEN MET ME YET.
second of all, even if you had met me, I’M NOT YOUR FUCKING GIRLFRIEND.
third of all, even if i WAS your girlfriend, I CAN STILL ASK FOR BOUNDARIES TO BE RESPECTED AND NOT EXPECT TO HAVE PISSY COMMENTS MADE ALL THE TIME ABOUT IT.
okay. so i’ve probably acted like this too, at some point, with some man, so this is karma. but i can say, that i only acted like this after being emotionally and or sexually intimate with the man, on a much much deeper level than this guy has been with me. we haven’t gone deeply at all, which is perfect, in my opinion.
anyway. he hasn’t called me today or contacted me. i don’t think it’s unreasonable to expect a phone call the night before to confirm tomorrow’s plans, time, place, etc.
i’m not going to go out to meet him tomorrow after not being called, especially when i asked to be called.
he’s playing some kind of game, i am sure of it. and guess what? i’m not picking up the ball. i never liked sports anyway.
next.
la la la
hyper man visited the lib today. i was just coming back from lunch with the mu-s-c gang, including good kisser *blush* and when i walked in, hyper man said to me, in his joking way “where have you BEEN, young lady??”
B looked at him and said (so i wouldn’t have to) “WHAT? are you her father??”
tee hee. it was kinda funny. i think he likes me 
okay, well, he likes me enough to continue flirting with me. i asked him if he needed something but it was in passing and he didn’t answer, and when i came out from the back, he was gone. hmmphf.
then there was good kisser. i’ve been going to my cuz’s office in the AM to put on my make up, as she does the same, and does her hair. she closed the door, but good kisser eventually barged in, needing something or other. he started telling me his friend liked the band photos soooooooo much and how great they were and thank you thank you and i just got completely MUTE.
i mean, really. silent? speechless? i can only imagine what look was on my face. i don’t know what was wrong with me. i wanted to ask if he’d looked at the site, but didn’t ask. and then he said “i didn’t have a chance to look at your site yet. i forgot to take home the little note you gave me on my computer.” (see, i guessed right about that).
continued being MUTE. so he says this (and now looking kinda concerned, as though he thought he’d upset me or something) “well, i mean, i won’t look at it if it’s a secret or something, i don’t want to upset you.”
i said that no, i just didn’t want it shared with people in school, except those i give it to, and of course he could look at it since i gave it to him. he seemed okay with that. it was kind of sweet.
later at lunch, we were all blabbing loudly at the same time, and joking and teasing, and the girls like to tease him, so i said, oh poor good kisser, leave him alone. he said “yeah!” and then later, i did make a teasing comment about him to one of the others in the room, that i swear i did not think he heard or that he was paying any attention to me at all, since he was talking to someone else, and he turned and said “i heard that.” i think he might have been upset 
i was only teasing, something about his messy room. well, so is mine.
then someone was talking about a kid thinking good kisser was RICH and i said something to my cuz that well, if that’s true, then… and we both cracked up laughing, because she knew EXACTLY what i was going to say next, without me having to say it at all.
we both laughed until we were crying and then he was all worried i was choking. it was cute 
damn good kisser. stop being cute. must stop with the crush. am sure it’s not reciprocal. he’s just nice to everyone.
