lol. they’ve been silly lately. the other day i had this one, right before i woke up. it was more like a message, than a dream:

my colleague who i don’t get along with was in front of me, very peaceful and being the person i think she wants to be, but can’t seem to be. anyway. she said this to me:

brenda, you are sending the energy that god has given you in the wrong direction. you need to look around you and put your energy there. what you are looking for (and here, she was talking about men, even though she didn’t say it, she was- as you know in dreams, you sometimes know things without them being stated directly) is right there, but you aren’t seeing it. it may be right here at (insert name of my place of employment) and you don’t see it. look to your right, and you’ll see. 

then i felt a tap on my right shoulder and i woke up. i laid there, with my eyes closed thinking about what had just happened. that dream felt like a message, not a dream. but why HER? it was a good message, but the fact that it came from her still annoys me.

so who’s to my right at work?

uhm.

brings me to dream last night.

lol. stop laughing D. lol. okay, you may laugh.
i dreamed that the sweet single music teacher (mr. goody two shoes, not the narrow-minded asshole i spoke of before) and i were out together at some concert. we were sitting together and just at the end of the concert, he leaned over and gave me this really great amazing kiss, and traced his hand along my body, from my breast to my belly. oh my!

i was shocked and very pleased (in the dream of course). i had no idea that he felt that way about me, and the kiss was awesome (not like the slobbery kiss i’d gotten in that other dream i talked about). i woke up all happy.

mr. m likes me! lol. yes, we call each other mister and miss, because that’s what you do when kids are around. but i’d probably call him that if i was his gf anyway.

so there. i admit it, i probably have a small crush on him, but i am quite sure it is not reciprocated, so i never let myself go there. he’s too “nice” for me, i’m too “old” for him (10 years his senior). and i’m thinking i’m not blonde enough or skinny enough either.

but two people recently have said something to me about him…one directly talked about him as a possibility for me (and i scoffed, to protect myself, of course) and the other just was talking about how he needs a woman. hmmmphf.

well. i wouldn’t say no to him. especially not after that KISS! lol