one of my fav teachers at work, i’ll call her V, and i ran into each other in the hall today and she said this to me (above).

she’s super sweet and super hyper, but i love her. she cracks me up. anyway. she said that and then went on and on about how great i look and wow and blah blah about how i’ve lost weight. her class was all lined up, waiting patiently as i blushed and thanked her and she rambled on and on.

i must say, it made my day. most of my clothes are just a tad bit too big now, and so i look a little dumpy in them, because i vowed i wouldn’t buy new ones until i lose enough weight to go down one more full size. i’m sort of in between sizes at the moment.

but when i wear jeans, they fit better, and today was jeans day, and i did wear a snug sweater, so. i guess it was more noticeable than the dumpy look i’ve been sporting lately (work clothes are markedly different than real life clothes–can’t be sexy or high heels or any of that crap in a school–well, at least i can’t).

i still have a lot of weight to lose, but i’m not putting pressure on myself. when someone asked me how i was doing it (it’s not really been that much weight, since i started losing last may–it’s only been 40 pounds) i just said that the only way possible for me to manage it, is to just focus on what i am eating at the moment. i try to make the best decision about food at that moment. i say to myself “okay, what’s the better thing to eat here?”

plus i’m eating breakfast everyday.

i don’t eat (mostly) after 7:30 at night.

i eat much smaller portions. i eat about 1/2 the bread that i used to.

i allow myself some treats, but only one item per shopping trip. so i allow myself ice cream or chips, or cookies. but not all three.

i make my lunch everyday.

i rarely eat out anymore, or just once a week, if that.

i cut way back on cheese (both for the fat reasons, and also because of my blood pressure issues).

i dance and walk way more than i was in the last few years.

i am not lonely like last year, so i am not emotionally eating (yes, i get lonely, but i’m much busier and happier here than i was in ithaca, so i can cope better, without EATING)

what i really need to do now, is step it up a bit. dance more. pilates. as soon as the snow stops i’ll get out my skates, and it’s time to get the bike tuned up and get a rack for the car, and i’m still considering that boxing class (and gym membership).

i think boxing would be good for me. in a number of ways. increase my confidence and feelings of strength and backbone (both physically and emotionally) and just be fun to learn how to punch someone. therapeutic lol.

anyway. she made me feel good. V is sweet