so last night i fell asleep early (for me) but then woke up in the middle of the night and just could not go back to sleep. it’s like something woke me up but by the time i was awake, whatever it was that woke me, was gone or had stopped so i didn’t know why i was suddenly awake. i laid in bed for awhile and frustrated, finally got up to check my email or stats or whatever. bleh.

i signed in and received a few offline messages from my dear Antonio (yes, i’m allowed to use his real name, he likes to know i am talking about him). i looked at the time he had sent them–it was just around the time i had woken up. hmmmm.

someone else used to do that to me, on occasion, from across the country as well. i’d get something or other from him and wake up in the middle of the night while it was being sent. and other things. i know it’s kinda crazy, but there’s still a connection to people, even when they aren’t in your physical space all the time.

anyone who doesn’t believe in things we can’t see or explain is just silly ask a physicist, they’ll tell you.

anyway. he’s in CA and we chatted for a bit. he was somehow different. there was some piece of his wall that he wasn’t keeping up. i noticed it, but didn’t really say anything about it. it was nice.

he’s one of the few men in the world who really knows the whole me (in some ways, not others) and i just sometimes need his perspective on things. he gets it. he respects me. i’ve grown to just deal with his boundary issues. because i want the other, so i accept it.

dublin dude (DD) will now be called Old Soul.

this seems to fit better.